Depression

I made this when I had my first crush...he had a gf and I did literally everything I could for him. I made myself sick from depression like I didnt eat for three days. I locked myself in my room every night having panic attacks and crying so hard that I had to take midol to help my headaches go away. A few weeks later I met up with him then he ghosted me...I am still at the point of crying myself to sleep every night trying to figure out what I did wrong and I still blame myself for everything that has happen through this year.? I have his gfs number and when I texted her somehow she found out I like her bf...so here she is all cussing me out and saying that I am hopeless and Im the reason he is depressed. So I blocked her number and told Logan about this...he said she was the victem...his gf photo shopped the texts to make it look like I was the one cussing her out. He still doesnt believe me...