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im so sick of this whats the point i mean at this poit im to tired to even sh. eating is something i have to remember and my parent arent helping. ik therapy and counselling is meant to be helpful but i feel so overwhelmed and i feel like i just have to keep going on like this because i dont wanna hurt anyone or make L do it too. everytime i see a pencil sharpener i get triggered and its so hard to stop. but the fact i dont have any formal diagnosis makes me feel like im faking it all for attention and i feel like iom not valid because i want to keep trying for L L L and I. and im so sick of M. i honestly hate her and i dont want to because everyone else likes her so i have to put up with her and ik im gonna get told off for being rude to her because its the only way i can express that i dont like her. shes a bad person and she makes me feel bad. but ik they will all side with her. and she makes me feel so invalid she always makes it out like shes the only pne suffering and im sick of it she doesnt even try to understand and doesnt care a bout me she always want toone up me trying to say that she has it worse.=(