Insecure

Im pretty insecure when it comes to showing myself. If that makes sense, I can't think abt wearing a swim suit without thinking people are gonna stare at me and just nickpick me? My mom doesn't make it better hah. Im a really confident person when it comes to just talking but not when it comes to body shape, i tend to hide myself. SInce i haven't been feeling great abt it, i get yelled at for it? My mom dislikes that i look bad and that i weight over 100, but bc my sister who is older, weights less than an average girl her age she doesn't get yelled at abt how she looks as much as i do. I wish i had money to go to therapy myself, bc i have so many issues and i've only been told that its my fault. Anyways, tmr there will be the rest of the prides :)